The Bliss (and challenges) of Summer

Oh, sweet summer.

The bliss in the air, the fresh, colorful blooms, and the melodies of people gathering outside late into the summer night.

Here's the thing: I've grown up as a midwestern girl and had mixed feelings about summer. I loved taking road trips each summer up to Wisconsin, deep into the woods. The air was crisp, we'd light the campfire at night, and stare up at the stars. This couldn't be done all year long. So, it was treasured. But, I couldn't always take the heat.

Except, here I am - in Florida. Summers are brutal (especially late afternoon). But there are such blissful moments as well. Schools are out, and as an educator myself in the career, the quiet moments are cherished.

Each summer, I look forward to these few things:

◦ slower mornings with my cup of coffee.

◦ the freedom to paint for as long as I want.

◦ extra time to explore new areas, cafes, beaches, and shops.

◦ time to take care of household chores without the pressure of doing it all in one day (anyone else stuck doing it on the weekends?)

◦ longer day time and catching the sunsets.

◦ warm evenings by the beach.

Although, this summer has been very busy for me.

As much I enjoyed what I listed, I also really focused on launching my first collection. After that came what seemed to be endless of ideas and more inspiration for several collections (I have two in the works right now).

As a creator AND a goal-oriented type A person, I often find myself stuck in a moment of comparison. And (shocker), even disappointment with myself.

Why am I not reaching enough people?

Does anyone even like it?

Am I cut out for this?

Questions and doubts seep into my mind, especially when I think I need to work harder when I am blessed with the time off. However, there is a danger in that as well.

Working hard, but overworking yourself will ZAP out all your energy. I found myself, although filled with creative ideas, burdening myself with the pressure that I just had to do it all within this time frame. Then came along more bumps in the road: family concerns, financial concerns, job concerns. Nothing new to us as adults. Except when it hits all at once? I was drained, I was exhausted, and I lost my peace.

It wasn't truly until I had to unexpectedly return to my family back in Chicago for a health scare that I truly had to seek rest again.

"Do not despise these small beginnings, for the Lord rejoices to see the work begin."

Zechariah 4:10

Now stuck having to face myself in the quiet moments, away from home, and my husband, I was reminded to not despise these small beginnings, or rough curves in the road. Whether or not you're in a rough patch, or just beginning something new, take a complete hold of it and go.

It is better to start than not at all.

The rest surely will follow.

xx,

Christina